Man, I am taking my bartending exam in a couple hours... and I still don't know any of the drinks. What have I done to myself? I tried to study last night though, but nothing was going into my head. Last week was a short week, with Present's Day and snow day and all. Even though it was a short week, I had 2 interviews, I made dinner for everyone before we went to the Back Bay Ball... wrote 2 papers.. kinda... And man oh man, why am I so tired? I couldn't keep my eyes open last night, and I just felt like crap! Life is just weird. The more energy you want, the less energy you get... And you are just drained out whenever you need to do something really important.

But on the good side... Annie called me right before I was going to bed and we had a good talk... It's good to have someone to talk to you about little things when you are just tired and exhausted. Then I called mom, told her what happened with the interviews... She said it's fine... They are really not pressurizing me to get a job after graduation... They know that I feel bad spending all this money on education, and not getting a job after graduation... But she said it's fine... They have enough money to feed me, so I can just go home and stay there for a while... Which is good... Dad told me not to worry... if I wanted to go hang out in Israel, it's cool with him. Yeah, I would love to go hang out there for a little bit... and forget about finding a job. Then I could go home and just relax, maybe teach a few students just basic English conversation... Hmm, that sounds really good. Mom said I don't have to teach a lot, a couple students is enough, and I can be on vacation at home, find a job, apply for grad school... and maybe look into a school in China... Hmm, maybe I could go to Australia too...

If only. Life is never as simple as one may think... And yeah, I should shut up and go back to studying... maybe get dressed first :)