Talking to Biki tonight. I was saying, what happens if I was told that I cannot use my computer anymore... and what if I was told that I can never cook again. She paused, and said, rather, what if you cannot use your hands anymore so you can't type nor cook?

What will become of me? I cannot use my hand, I cannot use my computer, nor cook, nor paint, don't even think about taking photos. Those things are my life. What if someone told me, you cannot have those things in your life anymore when I have taken them for granted for so long. I cannot imagine. I never want that happening to me. And I know it will hurt me so badly if that happens to someone that I care. But then again, I am being selfish, as I usually am. Look around, think about other people. There are so many people who lost what and who they love. But such is life right? Biki said, "life is a bitch, you gotta learn how to fuck it!" Somehow, at first, I felt that comment is a bit extream. But that's the truth after I thought about it. It is just another way of saying take what life gives you, deal with it, and benefit from it, right?

Yet, it still hurts to think about it. Human beings are selfish creatures. Only things directly related to us or people around us matters... Most of the time, other's business is not our business. But I hate knowing that I am such a selfish creature.

Life is a bitch, you gotta learn how to fuck it!