I read this somewhere:

"So many acts and expressions of love go unnoticed and unfelt, because we simply get used to them or become too busy to stop and take note -- or to stop and say thank- you."

Isn't that true?

We get used to all those little actions and don't notice the little "specialness" in them... We don't realize that maybe, people will appreciate that we did notice the specialness in their little actions.

My friend Lindsay put this in her AIM profile... I find it really true... So... here it is:

"I've learned one thing, and that's to quit worrying about stupid things. We have one semester to be irresponsible here. Relax, work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends.So stay out late, dammit. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink until sunrise. The work never ends but college does!"

Man, I should start partying hard! Live my life... coz what's gone will never be recovered! Carpe Diem! Enjoy what I can have now and think about tomorrow tomorrow... Tomorrow may be... Today IS.

Man, I am taking my bartending exam in a couple hours... and I still don't know any of the drinks. What have I done to myself? I tried to study last night though, but nothing was going into my head. Last week was a short week, with Present's Day and snow day and all. Even though it was a short week, I had 2 interviews, I made dinner for everyone before we went to the Back Bay Ball... wrote 2 papers.. kinda... And man oh man, why am I so tired? I couldn't keep my eyes open last night, and I just felt like crap! Life is just weird. The more energy you want, the less energy you get... And you are just drained out whenever you need to do something really important.

But on the good side... Annie called me right before I was going to bed and we had a good talk... It's good to have someone to talk to you about little things when you are just tired and exhausted. Then I called mom, told her what happened with the interviews... She said it's fine... They are really not pressurizing me to get a job after graduation... They know that I feel bad spending all this money on education, and not getting a job after graduation... But she said it's fine... They have enough money to feed me, so I can just go home and stay there for a while... Which is good... Dad told me not to worry... if I wanted to go hang out in Israel, it's cool with him. Yeah, I would love to go hang out there for a little bit... and forget about finding a job. Then I could go home and just relax, maybe teach a few students just basic English conversation... Hmm, that sounds really good. Mom said I don't have to teach a lot, a couple students is enough, and I can be on vacation at home, find a job, apply for grad school... and maybe look into a school in China... Hmm, maybe I could go to Australia too...

If only. Life is never as simple as one may think... And yeah, I should shut up and go back to studying... maybe get dressed first :)

Woke up at 5:30 AM by the traffic outside my wide open window. I lay in bed looking out the window as the sky changes into different shades of blue and getting lighter...
There are so many things in nature that we don't have time to notice... And so many beauties that just pass in front of our eyes without being appreciated...
LIke the snow... We had so much snow and I didn't even go out to take a single picture... Now everything is melting, it's too late. Beautiful things do not last forever, although the images stay in our mind if we took the effor to take a look at them.

Enough of my randomness... On to class :)

Damn JC, I still have black marker markings on my hand.

I just spent an entire snow day inside my room even though I had visitors... :( There is so much snow it's insane! But tomorrow... well, today, I will go out and play in the snow for sure :)
Really happy that we have this much snow though... Mom called me tonight and said she heard about the snow on TV back home! Wow... And Diny was saying that we got all the snow they should have had this winter! ;-) Very very good and happy :)

I LOVE SNOW. Really, anyone who doesn't is just weird. I know snow causes a lot of problems, like school cancelations, the T stops running, really really cold... etc. And yeah, when it stopps and the road sides are all gross and nasty... BUT come on! Snow is so beautiful... so nice... even though it's cold... and isn't it just romantic to walk in the snow? The whole world is white, whiteness everywhere... and you just dive into the whiteness! I need to do a snow angel too, I never did one... Hmmm... Also, need to get my camera out tomorrow so I can take pictures!

Alright, on that note, should get to bed... even though I am only half way through my paper... OH, btw, school got canceled... YAY! ;-)

It's a snow storm.

Woke up at 7:30 this morning, not knowing why... People were out jogging, my room is a mess... I took a look around my room and grabbed my book, started reading. I guess I fell asleep after 9:30 and when I woke up by the phone, the storm already started... YAY! It's snow! Who doesn't like snow? It would be wonderful to take a walk outside right now. The whole world is white... and white is still coming down...

I was talking to Elaine about going to Seattle at the end of May, a couple days after graduation... Why do I feel like I've gotten so old and lazy that I don't even want to make the effort to make it happen? I always wanted to see Seattle and she is going, but didn't want to go alone... I will have a free place to stay... someone to go with me so I don't always have to be the Loner who travels alone... But then I started thinking about moving after graduation, the job I want which is still yet to be found... So many things I have to think about... how can I take a week off before I have to move out of the dorm and go to Seattle... But I want to go! She kept on telling that if I want to go enough, I will make it happen... Which, usually is true... but why not anymore? What is wrong with me? Why? I lost my passion about everything?

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This past Saturday I started taking bartending classes... There are so many things I have to learn... How do people remember all those names of the drinks? And I was upset when the Sex on the Beach I ordered in Sydney didn't taste right? Yeah, I was a brat... There are just too many things to learn about all those drinks... I will have to memorize all of them by next week when I take my exams... Only good thing is that I don't have to study for the wine section... Now I have a deck of flash cards (I used a whole new pack of flash cards and I am not done with them) that I have to study from. And I have how many papers due for school this week? Hmm, better start on that now since I am stuck in the house by the snow anywayz.

And I can't stop eating...

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GOSH, I am so random.

So Gaza sent me an e-card yesterday... Besides the point that it was a really cute HI card, he wrote a really sweet and cute message at the end. It said something like: it doesn't matter that you are just one of the people in the world, you may be the world to somone... hmmm... I think he is right. The very existance of every individual is special... and everyone should realize that. Many many people, I guess including me, always feel that they are just no body, they are just another person... BUT NO! Every individual is special. Just remember that.

And Valentine's Day came and went... People love and hate this day... but life goes on, this day will come every year... No one can avoid it really...
Most people don't really care about the origin of Valentine's Day though... There are so many different stories... The first one I heard was that after this day, birds will start the mating process... So there are also spells and enchantments that say if you pick up a feather on that day, it will bring you luck for love... hmmmmmmmmmmmm

And then yesterday, I was searching for some islands on Google.com, and the logo of Google was really cute, very related to Valentine's Day... So I clicked on it, and brought up this page of origins about Valentine's Day... There are so many different versions... Many of them interesting... One of them was very believable... The day was named after St. Valentine who carried out ceremonies for many lovers when the Roman empire didn't want anyone to get married... It is very good to know I think... Look them up! ;-)

Lord of the Thongs
Hop it
And this is Biki's birthday get together conversation...
Gotta enjoy the friends... :)

Randomly ran into this article... I guess Valentine's Day is really coming this year! :) And because we live in a commercial world, it is just hard to escape those kind of "advertising" and "marketing"

Read on!

http://womencentral.msn.com/fitnesshealth/articles/bcmyths.asp

It's snowing!
And it's good snow... it's pretty snow...
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Interesting......
http://www.intellectualwhores.com/ladderintro.html

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESHEA! :)

LastResort.com
A very interesting article... hmmm, worth reading it, and then think about it... I agree with some but not agree with all...

It's getting so warm!
The air is warm, and the river got defrosted! It actually looks like a river now...
Spring is coming!

swenwen: I am too romantic
swenwen: it's not healthy
Diny: hehehehe
swenwen: I am too romantic and yet, I can't let myself think that someone might like me
Diny: same. I think thats why I think friends can become lovers.
Diny: Where did I hear ,,, I think it was a movie.....
swenwen: ?
Diny: ....someone said "what are the chances that you love someone and they love you back???" The chances are miniscule.
swenwen: yeah
swenwen: So small
Diny: truly. The marriages that work out. They are getting slimmer and slimmer
swenwen: I think... divorce is just getting way too easy to do, and people just don't care anymore
Diny: That's the story of our lives.
Diny: but the love maybe wasnt strong enough to keep them together
Diny: I think thats why you have to marry a best friend OR become best friends. You would never do anything to hurt a best friend

Happy New Year! It's the year of the SHEEP/GOAT!
Wow, I am getting old!

OH MAN. I want a Mini...