Thursday, March 20, 2003

Nuf said.

Save Tonight by Eagle-Eye Cherry

Go on and close the curtains
All we need is candlelight
You and me and a bottle of wine
Going to hold you tonight

We know I'm going away
How I wish....wish it weren't so
Take this wine & drink with me
Let's delay our misery

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone

There's a log on the fire
And it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire
To take me away....it's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye
Darling please don't start cry
'Cause girl you know I've got to go
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone

Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I......that I could stay
Girl you know I've got to go
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone....

Sunday, March 16, 2003

I hate family pressure.
DeShea was right... I act differently around strangers... I don't talk much and I am strange. Hm. That's not good. I am in the business of hospitality, I meet strangers all the time! I should do something about it.
Laundry fresh out of the dryer is one of the best things in the world.
I went on a cruise. It was fun. So many people have been asking me isn't that just for old people though. It's funny. Really. That is what generally people think. I guess like the Professor Kelly said, that is what cruise used to be. So many old people go on cruises, they even have morgues on borad... at least that's what Professor Kelly said.

So we got there and checked in on the boat. When I am inside, I can't really tell it's a ship. It's so freaking huge that it feels like we are on the ground still... just in a huge house. The first thing we did there was eat. And that pretty much sums up my first cruise experience. FOOD ALL THE TIME!

After the buffet in the afternoon, the ship took off. I started getting sick. It totally sucked since the eating was just about to start. Water was really rough, and I guess we were also in a storm or something. We got settled in and then started checking out the whole boat, and take advantage of all the crazy stuff on the ship. Everyone went for the "happy hour" at the martini bar and had martini and champagne except me. I had to stand up all the time and "rock with the ship!" OH well, I survived. Then dinner started. We had a sit down, served Italian 3 course plus salad meal. We also went crazy, ordered 2 bottles of wine. Yeah right. I didn't even finish one glass. I probably had 3 sips. Dinner was good nonetheless. I was full, and, well, had to go to bed.

The next morning, I could not wake up on time. My alarm went off dutifully at 7AM, I turned it off, next thing I know was Lindsay calling saying: are you up? MAN! It was 8. Well, it didn't take me long to get ready, but it did take me long to finish my breakfast. There were so many goodies. Bacon, ham, scrambled eggs, hash browns, cheese omelette, and oh yeah, SMOKED SALMON. ALL YOU CAN EAT. Did I hear HEAVEN?? ;-)

Took us a while to get on the tender... and the water was rough. The tender rocked the whole time when we were waiting for it to fill up and leave for CocoCay. I have to say, CocoCay is a lovely little island in the middle of nowhere. It's peaceful as soon as you get away from the crowd and the bars. We found a bunch of hammocks under the palm trees near the water... and the girls just went into the water! What did I do? Pulled a beach chair half way into the water and lied there, enjoyed the cool waves and get my share of Vitamin D :) Then when we finished lunch (which was a lot of bbq food), I went back and fell asleep on the hammock with the warm breeze and Lord of the Rings in my hand. That pretty much was what we did on CocoCay.

Dinner was some fantastic Caribbean food. We were smarter this time... no wine! Our assistant waiter Istvan went to CocoCay that day too and I guess, he had a crush on Adele! It was really cute when he saw Adele that night at dinner. He was cute and sweet... I guess, in a way... too bad Adele has a boyfriend. :-D
During dinner, they had the kids come in and pretend that they are pirates taking over the ship. Very cute. I love kids. Some of them were singing really loud and some of them were just standing there... I wonder which kid I would be... Aftter that, they also had a pirate come in and take pictures with everyone in the dining room. Crazy stuff. Of course, I went to bed after that. Is that even a surprise?? ;-)

Next morning, I got up bright and early, 7AM, thinking that me and Lindsay will get off the boat and start the day off early. But nah, I guess everyone had a crazy night. So, I had a relaxing long breakfast, with lots of hash brown, bacon and smoked salmon. Did I hear high cholesterol? Nah, it's good food! It took us a while to get off the ship, on to Nassau. I didn't get to see the city (??) that much... but we went to the Straw market, I think that's what it is called. They had so many things made of straw... bags, hats, and then they had necklaces of beads, sculptures, t-shirts... Well, basically a souvenir market under a tent, kinda reminds me of the Queen Victoria Market in Melbourne.

Then we took the water taxi to Paradise Island. On the way there, a guy on the taxi started giving a tour... He talked about the houses on the narrow end of Paradise Island. People, well, are rich. They had huge houses with huge gardens. And the only way to get to those houses is by water. There was one house that had a rather large dock and they build a little cabin at the end of the dock. It had huge floor windows, and from the window, I saw shelves of books and a comfy chair by the window. A desk was by the window too... I wish I had that kind of money. Well, as soon as we got to the island, we started walking towards the hotel Atlantis. Huge hotel, crazy. Kinda fantasy like and reminds me of the Lost City in South Africa. The hotel had some sections that I guess, we weren't allowed to go in, but did somehow. We got to see the aquarium and hung out at the pool side a little. We also listened to the tour guide a bit... Well, the hotel has a huge suite that costs 25,000 to stay per night. Michael Jackson was the first person to stay there, and a queen or something stayed there for 2 weeks (or 3, I can't remember)... I think that's the record... Then, we waited for Mer and Charles... but it started to rain. When they got there, they were both soaking wet! I was hungry too... Finally we sat down to eat... I had a burger... hehehe :) Yum. My mouth just watered thinking about that burger. After that, we pretty much just walked towards the beach, and hung out there for a while... built a rather different sand castle and headed back to Nassau. We went to the duty free and they bought Vodka and Rum... put them all in water bottle and sneaked them back to the ship. That was really funny.

And dinner that night was formal... We had to dress up and all... Man. I really don't know how people walk in high hills. But the food was great as usual... It was French themed. When Istvan asked me what I wanted to drink, I asked for iced tea with lots of lemon... He came back with a glass of ice tea and heaps of lemon wedges around the rim of the glass, like a flower! That was really cute. Wish I had my camera with me to get a picture of that. Towards the end of the meal, the "shots guy" came around and so we all decided to do a shot. The shot they offered that night was French kiss (made of Bailey's, Amaretto, and Cream de Cacao). It was really sweet... And well, I went to bed right afterwards. :-P

Last day, it was the "Day at The Sea" where we had to stay on the ship, since it's cruising :) I woke up sooooo darn early though... 7AM. I got up, and just went to eat breakfast, read, and do more relaxing. But what I really wanted to do was to save a couple seats by the pool in the sun since everyone was going to want a piece of land there. I managed to save enough for everyone... well, only 4, but who is going to be there all day... I was in the sun for 3 hours and that was it for me. I went inside the dining room, and I did a whole day of eating. By mid afternoon, one of the waiters came up to me and said "that book you are reading must be so interesting, you have been reading it all day here!" Darn right :) Book was really interesting, and man, the food was good too! OH, I also watched Maid in Manhattan in the cinema too... hehe, gotta take advantage of what's included in the package! ;-) Dinner was international night... so they had a lot of different stuff from different parts of the world... I can't really remember dinner that well for some reason. Probably too much eating to keep track for that day. HA. But anywayz, I got lots of sun that day...

The next day, we were GHETTO! We got off the ship, got on the bus and went back to the airport... then what did we do? Hung out on the grass by the parking lot for the whole day. How ghetto is that?? But oh well, we are poor students and we wanted to enjoy the sunshine as much as possible. After everyone else left, it was just me and Diana left... We had a good talk... I didn't feel like I knew her as a person very well until we had a good talk... That was good. Getting closer to great people is always good.

Well. I had a good time. I got a lot of sleep, but at the same time, I am just more tired than before. Once you had some sleep, you need more sleep. The day we flew back to Boston, they had some snow... Well, I guess life can't always be the way you want it to be. You gain some, and you have to give some. In this case, I guess we've had heaps of sunshine and warmth, it's about time to share some of that coldness :-D

Am I going on another cruise in the future... well, I will think about it... I got sea sick and then now I am land sick. If cruising on land is ever possible......

Great song... weird video, still trying to figure out what the video is really trying to say... or perhaps, it's not trying to say anything... I always liked this song since the first time I heard it... and I remember vaguely someone told me to really look into the lyrics. The song is on my MD, and I have been listening to it before Paris, when I was in Paris, back home, in Sydney, and back in Boston. Yesterday, after grocery shopping, while walking home with all the bags, I'm like a bird was playing on my MD again... This time, I didn't just listen, I thought about it.

Perhaps it is talking about everyone... Perhaps everyone feels the same way. There is always uncertainties in life. Things we cannot control, things we wish is one way but always turn out the other way. Like in "While you were sleeping," the Dad said that life never turns out the way you planned it. There are so many things we want to change in life that just never will happen. And there are things in life that we wish we could run away from. But hey, who knows, maybe the next second you just change your mind.

Anywayz, I just felt that I can relate to the person in this song.
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I'M LIKE A BIRD by Nelly Furtado

You're beautiful, that's for sure
You'll never ever fade
You're lovely but it's not for sure
That I won't ever change
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is
Your faith in me brings me to tears
Even after all these years
And it pains me so much to tell
That you don't know me that well
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true

It's not that I wanna say goodbye
It's just that every time you try to tell me, me that you love me
Each and every single day I know
I'm going to have to eventually give you away
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true
Hey I'm just scared
That we may fall through

Monday, March 03, 2003

I saw The Viagina Monologues today. It was really good... It had a lot of monologues about abused women. And it was also really funny... It talked about a lot of things people don't really talk about... or things people get embarassed when the subject is brought up in public. Well... if anyone gets a chance to see it... you should! :)

http://www.vaginamonologues.com

Sunday, March 02, 2003

My dog died. 3 years ago. No one thought about telling me that... It is just like the previous dog... My parents and my sister didn't think of telling me until a while afterwards... Does everyone think that I can't handle it? Or they just didn't think I care??

Perhaps I come off as someone who doesn't really care about those things... I can be cold to people... Sometimes I don't show my feelings... But is it wrong that I like to keep it to myself. I don't like being weak. I hate crying in front of people. I hate when people know when I am sad and emtional... Maybe I should learn how to express myself... Maybe I should learn to be comfortable to let people know how I feel... Maybe it is OK.

Saturday, March 01, 2003

It's been 10 years now... I arrived in South Afirca 10 years ago today... 10 Years since I left Taiwan... WOW. Something to remember... and perhaps something to celebrate...